Oh, Victory

Oh victory, in Jesus

My Saviour

Forever

He sought me

& bought me

With His redeeming blood

He loved me 'ere

I knew Him

And all my love

Is due Him

He plunged me

To victory

Beneath the cleansing flood.

{words and music E.M. Bartlett}

A Mirror is Harder To Hold

You could stay a while longer

We could stay up and talk about last summer

We could go down to the water, watch the sunset goin’ under

Its not that I’m a stranger to lonely moments

I’ve had my share of those

Please don’t go please don’t leave me alone

A mirror is so much harder to hold

I could try to point a finger

But the glass points in my direction

Sure you’ve got your sharp edges but my wounds are from my own reflection

You’ve got nothing I could ever hold against you

Ive got fatal flaws to call my own

Please don’t go, please don’t leave me alone

A mirror’s so much harder to hold

I met a man who was looking for perfection

Said he’d never met a girl who was good enough

His eyes are getting old like they’d love to love again

Such a lonely man

Such a lonely man

I see him in my reflection taking steps toward me these days

So I hold you that much closer and pray we don’t throw this away

It’s not that I’m a man who couldn’t love you

I know what these arms are for

Please don’t go please don’t leave me alone

A mirror’s so much harder to hold

A mirror’s so much harder to hold

Please don’t go please, don’t leave me cold

A mirror’s so much harder to hold

Hot

Tell me why.

Why the climate and weather during Chinese New Year never fail to be hot, sunny, and hot every year?

Why the uncles and aunties come up to you will comment about your gain in weight as if you didn't know about it?

Why did Jackie Chan die at the end of Little Big Soldier?

WHY!

Rethink

Taken months ago.

Taken weeks ago. by josephine

Still smiling and kickin'.
Life's awesome. =)

Abandon

Blog will be abandoned for the moment now due to:

1 camera rosak. sucks.
2 loads of logbooks to complete
3 no mood because,
4 camera rosak
5 logbooks
(and it goes again and again)

Will be back asap. =)

Awesome

Missing sunsets

Sunset trips, anyone?

I'm happy

I'm no longer in bondage!! xD

uh yea.

This is a vampire too. Sesame Street hired Count von Count and his pet bats Grisha, Misha, Sasha, and Tatiana along with his cat Fatatita to perform in a slot during the show.

Take it slow

Slow-owh-owh-owh.

We're not desperate people. =)

Don't worry, I'll still be there. =)

HERE IN MY LIFE



I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me:
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me:
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way!

I have reason to be sulky and sullen for the rest of the year. This year had been a disaster for me. Everything just doesn not work out right. When I was at the happiest point of my life, it went down and down and down...

But here I am! Rejoicing and being myself, the best I could be. I manage to go through the past two days without regrets, without the heartache that has been dwelling in my heart for the year.

I kept searching for joy in human. I was finding for the happiness, the company in human. But just recently, I realized everything isn't real. The smile on my face wasn't real. I loved to fit in gangs, so that I can fill up the void the past hurtful experiences left in me. Even someone very dear to me that I could trust, I could believe in, someone that i thought would always be ever ready to be there for me can also fail me.

It will be disappointing if you place your trust and security in a human being. (Those who agrees say YEA! xD) They will just fail you without mercy because of something wrong you've done. Or just simply, erm.. Fail you?

I've know that my trust can be placed in Jesus. It is clearly stated in the bible that God will never fail you. He never changes His heart. He never will say, "Sorry son, I HAD loved you, you're too late".

TO LIVE IS CHRIST, TO DIE IS GAIN.

Isn't it awesome to have something you could live for? Something lasting and never ends. I'm not living for any food anymore, they give you stomachache if you really live for them. I'm not living for any girls anymore, I had enough. They'll fail you someday when you least expected it. BUT, to live for Christ, it will be something lasting, furthermore, HE HAS PLENTY OF LOVE AND GRACE KEPT IN STORE FOR YOU!

Bible says, abide in Him, and he will bless you abundantly. Me favourite chapter of the bible states:

A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
This is the promise of God. If we decide to live with Him in our lives, we will have no worries in life. He will provide everything you'll ever need.

Recently I've attended a funeral of the grandma of a good friend of mine. The testimony of her life really encouraged me to live a live of Christ. Even with all the difficulty she faced in her life, a tough life, she still chose to abide in His words, and on a wheelchair, she still went on preaching to her friends or any strangers she met. She had every reason to hate her God. She had every reason to give up her life. But she stayed strong in faith. On her death bed, in the agony and pain of her sickness, she was still able to sing praises to Him, and pray. "Pray for me so Jesus will quickly bring me home". She passed away as someone who lived a life as a Christ. She passed away in peace. To a much better place. Only Jesus is able to give that peace.

When you die, do you wanna say, "I'm gonna die! Oh no. Help me, doctor!", or "Hey, no worries. I'm just going home."?

I HAVE THE REASON TO BE JOYFUL.

Living a life with Christ in the centre, we can smile at any heartbreaks, but still able to love without expecting a return. God knows exactly what you need at the right time.

Jesus says do not worry about food or clothing, bless others, and the Father will bless you.

I don't wanna live for any earthly purposes anymore. I don't wanna tell my girlfriends in the future that I can't live without her if she wants to leave me. Because what ever that will happen, is all in God's hands. I want to leave this earth, having my children and friends able to say that I'm a person not ashamed, not afraid to tell the world about Christ. Life is wonderful, to die in Christ is wonderful. BUT to be Christlike is ever more wonderful.

This is the reason why i can still smile. =)

Life's good

Yes. That was me.

I will not be sulky anymore.
I will not be sulky anymore.
I will not be sulky anymore.
I will not be sulky anymore.
I will not be sulky anymore.
I will not be sulky anymore.
I will not be sulky anymore.

Life is exciting.
Life is amazing
God is good.
=)

2009

This year WILL end good. It's been sucky all year long. "when you're on the high, prepare to fall". It has been like this. I made friends. I gained enemies. I want to leave school. It's a fine place. But at times very very disappointing. I know the world out there is tougher and more challenging. But hey, I'll put Christ in front of me. Everything will be smooth. Everything will be fine. I want to make new friends. I want to make better friends with the existing ones.

Sorry if I offended anybody.
I forgive those who offended me.
I prefer being friends with those I hurt.
I'm feeling all sullen now, but it'll turn out fine through time.

I regret many things I've done, I've chose to do. But the future is undecided. It'll be good.

SPM will be fine. The tuition later will be good too.

If you read this till the end, you are as lifeless as me. =)

To you, i wish i've never felt whatever i felt the past month, it'll be better. Everything from your mouth came is as if those are lies for now. Hope it'll be true someday. I'm certain bout my feelings. But I'll be here, as whatever you prefer me to be.

"How easy indeed it is, I realized, for us to be sidetracked by the busyness and demands of our everyday lives. Life seems so mundane sometimes, so monotonous. And if that isn't enough, life catches us by surprise with unexpected trials and twists and turns; hurts, a broken heart, a dampened spirit, a dreadful feeling of being alive, a depressed state of mind.

People hurt people. People feel hurt.People hurt other people back in return.PERIOD.Nothing more to add to that. This is a fact of life that we all can't evade so as long as we're still living on this planet. Our emotions are like a rollercoasters. The very moment you're feeling up, be prepared for a drop back to earth. This statement by pastor is so true. This begs the question: Do we let our emotions dictate how we are to live? Do our words, thoughts, and actions flow along with the rise and fall of our emotional state? Or... Do we live out our lives with a Peace that is free and independent of our emotions?

The Bible says, "as a man thinks, so he feels". I find this extremely true and paramount in my understanding of human nature. Do we let circumstances change us or do we change the circumstances? Are we a thermometer or a thermostat? The former is completely different from the latter.

Hurt is REAL. Pain is REAL. I know. Believe me, I do. But now I realize, Jesus IS MORE REAL! Jesus just floods our hearts with His love when we come to Him. And suddenly, you find the pain is gone, the hurt has vanished, and is replaced by His ever-abounding love, joy, and peace.

This weekend, God has refreshed my soul by speaking to me through the youth service message and this morning's Sunday preaching. I learnt that once we know our identity in Him and Who loves so much, we needn't worry bout' a thing no more. So what if we're misunderstood? So what if we're accused wrongly? The KING OF KINGS, the only one whose opinions about us really matter, thinks the BEST of us! All this seems so puny compared to the very fact that Jesus LOVES you for who you are. And boy, did He really show it without holding back! He gave us His everything on that Cross! WOW, suddenly all insecurity is gone! All concerns of life, all hurt, all sorrow, is replaced by His love, favor, and immense Joy! I learnt that Jesus is my reality and HE has blessed me with ALL blessings!

An excerpt of the song, The Stand clearly echoes the cry of my heart:

You stood before my failures,

And carried the Cross for my shame,

My sin weighed upon Your shoulders,

My soul now to stand.

So what could I say,

What could I do,

But to offer this heart Oh God,

Completely to You.

I pray you guys are blessed reading this just as I am blessed by the revelation of His love for us!

We need to be constantly reminded of His amazing, unfailing LOVE.

As Christ is, so are we in this world!"

From www.subanglah.blogspot.com, Benjamin Soo

what?

Felt very much like, whats that word again?

Tarik Harga?

yea, perhaps... idk.

Your Unfailing Love - Hillsong

When the darkness fills my senses,                             
When my blindness keeps me from Your touch,
Jesus come.

When my burden keeps me doubting,
When my memories take the place of You,
Jesus come.

And I'll follow You there
To the place where we meet,
And I'll lay down my pride
As You search me again.

Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love over me again.

When i was doing my quiet time just now, this song suddenly came into my mind.
I was pissed at everything that was going on in life, and when everything was getting better, it went all messy again.

I was kinda composing my own phrase and idioms..

"Nothing in this life last".
"Everything will fail you someday, when u least expected it".
"People will always bring you down".

But, I hey, whats wrong with me? Am I forgetting something? How can I fail to see
there's always someone with me all along, when I was down, when I doubt this life, He will remind me and say, "Dude, what you mean you're alone, I'm right here lah".

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

There's no doubts anymore I'll be able to love again, because of this great love that had been poured on me. How can I live without this?

I wanna more than fine! xD

"ya don't need to doubt me, I can assure you that. =)"

100

uhh. I wanted to post something emo, but I just realized, this would be my 100th post! woohoo! (i know i know.. im a slow and lazy blogger. =)) Two years now, since I decided to open this thingy. Looking back, many things had happened. Many happy, sad, frustrating, and emotion in anyways had I gone through, and am going through. But, there's definately one good thing bout it. I'm still strong in faith. Many times I failed and lost hope in life. But there's still one answer to these tragedies. Jesus. When I have to end my night in sorrow, I pray. I remembered once I when i felt i was totally cut off this world, overcomed by loneliness, I heard a clear voice saying, " I'm always with you, son."

Remember my readers (if I have any...), God will not forsake you. He is always beside you. Not near, Its an understatement. He is always BESIDE you, giving you support, blessing you. The world wouldn't end even if a girl decides that you are annoying, and wanna have her own life. Because He always have a plan for you. When u study your additional mathematics, the probability chapter. There are countless routes and probability that is ahead of you. But no matter which way you choose to take, just trust in the Lord, have faith, and He will walk with you, BESIDE you.

Though I walk through the valley of shadow, I fear no evil, because I know that You are with me. Oh Lord, teach me to walk in faith. I know Your plan for me is big, and I wanna trust You. Lead me, You are my strength when I'm weak.

No matter what happens, I will continue to love, not being disappointed in the world. Every morning I wake up, I will not hold any grudge against anyone. For You have forgiven me, so I may forgive others. Let me live a life, filled with Your mercy, Your grace. Let the people around me know that You are my God. That my strength comes from You. I need your strength oh Father. Chat with You later, daddy oh. =)

If you ever read this, remember, I'll always see you as someone important in my life. =) Find me.

Jason Mraz

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads saying
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken heart then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
mmmhmm

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything, everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you�re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

Ahem

I need to get used to this!
Make up my mind!
Stop pondering the past!
It's over, move on!
What the heck is happening?!
Concentrate!!
Priorities have to be set!!
Look somewhere else!!
Stop looking at the phone, no message is coming in!
Put the phone down!!
Stop thinking so much!
It's not gonna work out!!
Shut up!!
Study!!
See, know this would happen!
Over edi, no more long suffering!
Be wiser next time!
Tell Uncle Joash first!!

*fuh.. sorry for the rants. feel better now.*

If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream---and not make dreams your master;
If you can think---and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:.
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings, nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And---which is more---you'll be a Man, my son!

Rudyard Kupling

How i wish...

Andy McKee - Rylynn

It's amazing

It is amazing,
In these times of trials,
One could find peace.
Not in one's spouse,
Not in one's friends,
Not in one's family.
But in God.

Everything will surely fail one,
Will turn their backs on one,
Will disappoint one,
Will betray one,
But in these times of trials,
One could find peace in God.

One will find rest,
One will find peace,
One will feast,
Even when the enemies roar,
Even when the enemies charge,
Because one knows that God will be one's lead.

Better is a day in His presence,
Than thousands elsewhere.
He will hold one in His arms,
He will dress one in white robes,
He will be one's everlasting peace.
Surely, one will rest in the House Of God forever.

Even now,
Trails still prevail ,
Thunders shake,
Oceans rise,
Earth collapses,
Sky falls,
But one shall not be afraid,
Because one knows,
That He is with one,
For the rest of one's days

It's amazing,
It's amazing.

-Jezreel-
-2009-