Don't worry, I'll still be there. =)

HERE IN MY LIFE



I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me:
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me:
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me
Still you made a way!

I have reason to be sulky and sullen for the rest of the year. This year had been a disaster for me. Everything just doesn not work out right. When I was at the happiest point of my life, it went down and down and down...

But here I am! Rejoicing and being myself, the best I could be. I manage to go through the past two days without regrets, without the heartache that has been dwelling in my heart for the year.

I kept searching for joy in human. I was finding for the happiness, the company in human. But just recently, I realized everything isn't real. The smile on my face wasn't real. I loved to fit in gangs, so that I can fill up the void the past hurtful experiences left in me. Even someone very dear to me that I could trust, I could believe in, someone that i thought would always be ever ready to be there for me can also fail me.

It will be disappointing if you place your trust and security in a human being. (Those who agrees say YEA! xD) They will just fail you without mercy because of something wrong you've done. Or just simply, erm.. Fail you?

I've know that my trust can be placed in Jesus. It is clearly stated in the bible that God will never fail you. He never changes His heart. He never will say, "Sorry son, I HAD loved you, you're too late".

TO LIVE IS CHRIST, TO DIE IS GAIN.

Isn't it awesome to have something you could live for? Something lasting and never ends. I'm not living for any food anymore, they give you stomachache if you really live for them. I'm not living for any girls anymore, I had enough. They'll fail you someday when you least expected it. BUT, to live for Christ, it will be something lasting, furthermore, HE HAS PLENTY OF LOVE AND GRACE KEPT IN STORE FOR YOU!

Bible says, abide in Him, and he will bless you abundantly. Me favourite chapter of the bible states:

A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
This is the promise of God. If we decide to live with Him in our lives, we will have no worries in life. He will provide everything you'll ever need.

Recently I've attended a funeral of the grandma of a good friend of mine. The testimony of her life really encouraged me to live a live of Christ. Even with all the difficulty she faced in her life, a tough life, she still chose to abide in His words, and on a wheelchair, she still went on preaching to her friends or any strangers she met. She had every reason to hate her God. She had every reason to give up her life. But she stayed strong in faith. On her death bed, in the agony and pain of her sickness, she was still able to sing praises to Him, and pray. "Pray for me so Jesus will quickly bring me home". She passed away as someone who lived a life as a Christ. She passed away in peace. To a much better place. Only Jesus is able to give that peace.

When you die, do you wanna say, "I'm gonna die! Oh no. Help me, doctor!", or "Hey, no worries. I'm just going home."?

I HAVE THE REASON TO BE JOYFUL.

Living a life with Christ in the centre, we can smile at any heartbreaks, but still able to love without expecting a return. God knows exactly what you need at the right time.

Jesus says do not worry about food or clothing, bless others, and the Father will bless you.

I don't wanna live for any earthly purposes anymore. I don't wanna tell my girlfriends in the future that I can't live without her if she wants to leave me. Because what ever that will happen, is all in God's hands. I want to leave this earth, having my children and friends able to say that I'm a person not ashamed, not afraid to tell the world about Christ. Life is wonderful, to die in Christ is wonderful. BUT to be Christlike is ever more wonderful.

This is the reason why i can still smile. =)